Not sleeping tonight, past and present all causing me headaches and insecurities and weariness. My whole body is screaming to sleep, but my mind flits from problem to problem and won't give me rest. Most of the problems aren't even real big ones. they are things that I have friends that can help and will if I ask. But still they keep me awake. Other things bother me too. I'm probably imagining things, being paranoid. I have to admit that my over active imagination tends to get me in trouble. Some days I feel like everyone and everything is somehow conspiring against me. I like to say I'm cursed. Whether it's true or not I don't know. Maybe it's just my poor rattled mind creating shadow to jump at.
I hate feeling sorry for myself so screw all that sob I just blabbed. The truth is that I created almost all my own problems and thanks to good friends and loved ones I'm staying out of the fire. And though I'm not sure what I'm so worried about otherwise. Just nagging worries that I need to work through nothing founded in reality. So I guess the short and skinny of the problem is "Suck it up and keep moving" Once again sorry to be a downer blog tonight and hopefully I'll feel more like joking tomorrow.